Trapped Within Myself

Trapped Within Myself – Chris Borgman

all around invisible
though it feels physical
how can I move past
my childhood harassed

those years that formed me
are now what deforms me
no escaping them today
it’s the hand I’ll have to play

close my eyes, retreat within
held below no way to win
rotting thoughts of promises
sink beneath my consciousness

here comes the flood again
I recognize the warnings
all my options are a sin
too late now I’m drowning

CHORUS
trapped within myself
parasitic loneliness
trapped myself within
overwhelming hopelessness

trapped within myself
never ending darkness
trapped myself within
holding tight to emptiness

frozen scared to breathe
I’m surprised that I still bleed
frozen scared to leave
no way out or to be free
frozen scared to see
I’m the one who’s killing me

self consuming soul
feeding intravenous
faceless memories take control
revealing all my weakness

painful insecurities
without a key they imprison me
mental vulnerabilities
breeding grounds for disease

who would dare lend a hand
or even look my way
am I not worth a smile ?
ok, maybe another day

too much pain I close my eyes
can you hear me suffering
quick decent without goodbyes
desperate cries of hurting

CHORUS